What The Heckk???

Yesterday i did some friends searching in fb. I look for each of my friend's profile, looking at their albums, pictures, information, mutual friends and everything. Then I stopped at one of my friends profile. Her name is SM (not a real name). She was my old friend. She is a very chubby and quite dark skin person. and of course not so beautiful.
But I'm not going to talk about her physical appearance. I'm going to talk about general; girls that same as her type. You see, if we were someone that is not so attractive, we will try to show a good side of our self right? But nowadays i didn't see any of that in any girls that i know. when i looked at her profile pic, she is not only free hair, but she is wearing skirts? also shirts that shows her breast lining? What the hell? C'mon. you are not that beautiful, so please do not show the parts that making u look awful!
That is not only what I'm seeing at her profile. Whats inside is the worst! The albums, the photos, oh my GOD! If my mom saw my photo just like my friend here, she gonna faint. But i dont know about SM's mom. One of the albums name is New Year 11. All of the photo in there were at a concert and hotel room (?)
Lemme story a lil bit bout the pic at the concert. there was a guy dancing but more like drunk. Take off his shirts in front of everyone, girls and boys hugging each other. What the hell? Some of SM friends in the photo are same as her. big body, but very sexy. some of them with their bf. hugging each other like the malay saying: Macam belangkas.
Then the pic at their hotel room. OMG! they actually let the guys enter the room?? What the HELL?? I cant continue writing this. I felt very sad.

ciaow~

2/3/2011. the most f*** up day in this month.. i got a bitch warning me to delete her photo from my album, i got non-stop work for today, then my wife getting her last stage of surgery, then i was stuck in a traffic jam when im on my way to meet my best friend to watch Beastly. the bad news is, the ticket redeem time is over.
why am i keep frustrating all the people that i've met? from the day i born, my family frustrated with me coz im a very crybaby. each time something goes wrong, i cried. i always had a big fight with my big bro. we fight for everything.
as the time goes by, my parents sent me to a Tahfiz school. they expect me to remember 30 verse of Al-Quran. unfortunately im not good at my memory. then the head master said "either you quit, or i expel you." seems to me that i don't have other choice eh? so i continue my study to a day-school.when i was in form 3, i made my Arabic teacher frustrated coz i failed her subject. she is so frustrated till she dont speak to her student anymore.
then i moved to technical school. i met many new friends. in fact, all of them are my new friends. i've seen many faces and attitudes. some can be friends some are not. on the last day of my school, i've made my leader frustrated with me coz i was involved in a fight. then, no one trusted me after that exept my best friend. i've made many people frustrated with me.
and the latest, i've made my best buddy frustrated. he waits for me for hours coz i'm late. damn it!. why cant i change myself! s***! i just wanna say sorry to him. i am so f***ed up!

Duhai Isteriku yg Tercinta

Isteri tersayang sedang dalam pembedahan. kesian dia. dah lebih 2 minggu dia tersadai kat bengkel. Hari saya bawak balik barang dari kolej pun dia tak dpt berjasa. Maklum lah, dah berumur. Tahun '88 lahir, sampai sekarang masih berjasa lagi! Sayang awak ,Prado.
Mulanya nak tukar minyak enjin. tukar oil filter skali. malangnye tengah jalan2 test drive, tiba2 brek kosong. nasib baik yg test drive tu profesional (bapak aku). kalau saya yg test drive.... huh.. tak dapek den nak nolong.

Nak cite pasal kos maintenance pulak, adoi! bak kata orang tua2; semakin besar saiz sebuah kereta, semakin besar kos maintenance. kalau anda rajin, meh kita sama2 keluarkan buku kira2 atau kalkulator. minyak enjin diesel 12liter/2 tong= RM200+, oil filter=RM50+, brake pad 1 set(2 keping 1 tayar)=RM1000, brake oil 1liter=RM20.

dah 2 hari macam ni.
tak ada barang & tak ada masa untuk repair
sebab banyak kereta lain nk kene repair.

Brake pad
benda ni satu set je dah RM 1,000.
waduh, mana mau cari wang!

Front Brake

Rear Brake

Brake oil container (yang warna kuning)

After being left for 5 hours (look at the asphalt).
To soultan: this is what happen when you put your feet under the tire.

THE NEW ME!!

i just came back from this 'program'. im not gonna tell what program is it, but ill tell you when i succeeded in this program. we might need to use our mind a little bit. just to remember what did the speaker told us what to do.
right now what i need is to ask help from my friends, find myself, fix myself, push myself to the limit! no more fooling around! no more playing around! i must success! no more pampering myself! i know what i must do! i must do what i know what to do! I want to to prove to her, to my family, to my friends, to them, to everyone, I have changed!
after i succeeded, I will pull EVERYONE to join my success! I'll help y'all! I'll change your life!

WORLD!! BE READY!! HEAR I COME!! YEAH!!

i text her recently. i told her how much i miss her. she said her love for me is over & never return to love me again. she said that there is someone better for me than her self.
then i said; i will wait for you. i know deep in ur heart, u still love me.
she said; there is no more.
i said; i remember the first time we meet. we don't love each other on that time.
she said; the difference is this time not just no more, but never.
i asked; just because u TAUGHT that i have someone else?
she said; whatever taught now are too late. things already happen. now im looking foward to someone else but this time it'll be more serious.
i said; there is no one else that i love than my family, friends & you.
she said; God plans the best for us.
i said; & u are the best for me. I've climb Jabal Rahmah to pray that you'll be the best for me. I've humbled myself to God so that you'll be the best for me. i really love you.
she said; u will forget me 1 day.
i said; if you can forget me, its a lie. if i can forget you, its a lie. if you don't love me anymore, its a lie. if i can hate you, its a lie. don't lie to yourself or others. or else others will lie to you. my love towards you never lie. if i was lying, i never love you this far. but till death i wont lie to myself.

why did she still have in mind that i have someone else?? ****!! WHY?!! can anyone told me?? WHY?!! PLEASE!! for 3 month i suffer just because she said i have someone else?? WHAT THE ****!!!

Shooting Stars.

Talking bout shooting stars, have you ever seen one with ur own eyes? well I've seen it twice. it was very mesmerizing. i feel like i was in a heaven, looking at something that is really, really, totally rare. it shoots from one star to another star. the first time i saw it, i feel like my eyes tricking myself. but on the second incident, i feel like i was a very special human.
The first time is when i was with my family on vacation at Terengganu. on that time, i was laying on the sand on the beach, looking at the skies, counting the stars, texting my girl, then i saw it. I feel like "Wow, what a very romantic moment". i can never forget every thing about that moment. more over, i just had a quarrel between me and my little brother. when i saw the shooting star, i feel like all my problems just lost.
The second time, when i was dating with my girl. well, this time im not having a very good moment tough. there was a very big problem happens to us. but still, i can never forget it. when i was talking to 'this guy', i look up into the skies and there it was; the shooting stars. it really mesmerize me. then again, i feel like all my problems lost. unfortunately, she didn't see it. well, may be i really are a special human. =p

sedang melayan lagu Airplane - B.O.B. ft Haley, tiba2 terkenang si dia. kebetulan pula, saya sedang msg adik lelaki dia utk bertanya khabar dia. hmm.. tanpa saya sedari air mata mengalir. bukan kerana kisah silam, tetapi kerana mendapat berita dia akan ke Syria. ada program untuk kos dia. bagaimanakah rasanya berjauhan dengan dia? bagaimana jika dia bertemu dgn lelaki2 Syria yg hensem2? pastinya diri ini diketepikn. hmm. sedih memang sedih, tp kne tabahkn hati. kalo dpt apa2 berita yg tak sedap didengar, kne terima dengan hati terbuka walaupun terpaksa. mungkin sbg petanda yg diri ini belum bersedia untuk mencintai seseorg.