i just came back from this 'program'. im not gonna tell what program is it, but ill tell you when i succeeded in this program. we might need to use our mind a little bit. just to remember what did the speaker told us what to do.
right now what i need is to ask help from my friends, find myself, fix myself, push myself to the limit! no more fooling around! no more playing around! i must success! no more pampering myself! i know what i must do! i must do what i know what to do! I want to to prove to her, to my family, to my friends, to them, to everyone, I have changed!
after i succeeded, I will pull EVERYONE to join my success! I'll help y'all! I'll change your life!
WORLD!! BE READY!! HEAR I COME!! YEAH!!
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Saturday, February 26, 2011
i text her recently. i told her how much i miss her. she said her love for me is over & never return to love me again. she said that there is someone better for me than her self.
then i said; i will wait for you. i know deep in ur heart, u still love me.
she said; there is no more.
i said; i remember the first time we meet. we don't love each other on that time.
she said; the difference is this time not just no more, but never.
i asked; just because u TAUGHT that i have someone else?
she said; whatever taught now are too late. things already happen. now im looking foward to someone else but this time it'll be more serious.
i said; there is no one else that i love than my family, friends & you.
she said; God plans the best for us.
i said; & u are the best for me. I've climb Jabal Rahmah to pray that you'll be the best for me. I've humbled myself to God so that you'll be the best for me. i really love you.
she said; u will forget me 1 day.
i said; if you can forget me, its a lie. if i can forget you, its a lie. if you don't love me anymore, its a lie. if i can hate you, its a lie. don't lie to yourself or others. or else others will lie to you. my love towards you never lie. if i was lying, i never love you this far. but till death i wont lie to myself.
why did she still have in mind that i have someone else?? ****!! WHY?!! can anyone told me?? WHY?!! PLEASE!! for 3 month i suffer just because she said i have someone else?? WHAT THE ****!!!
then i said; i will wait for you. i know deep in ur heart, u still love me.
she said; there is no more.
i said; i remember the first time we meet. we don't love each other on that time.
she said; the difference is this time not just no more, but never.
i asked; just because u TAUGHT that i have someone else?
she said; whatever taught now are too late. things already happen. now im looking foward to someone else but this time it'll be more serious.
i said; there is no one else that i love than my family, friends & you.
she said; God plans the best for us.
i said; & u are the best for me. I've climb Jabal Rahmah to pray that you'll be the best for me. I've humbled myself to God so that you'll be the best for me. i really love you.
she said; u will forget me 1 day.
i said; if you can forget me, its a lie. if i can forget you, its a lie. if you don't love me anymore, its a lie. if i can hate you, its a lie. don't lie to yourself or others. or else others will lie to you. my love towards you never lie. if i was lying, i never love you this far. but till death i wont lie to myself.
why did she still have in mind that i have someone else?? ****!! WHY?!! can anyone told me?? WHY?!! PLEASE!! for 3 month i suffer just because she said i have someone else?? WHAT THE ****!!!
Shooting Stars.
Talking bout shooting stars, have you ever seen one with ur own eyes? well I've seen it twice. it was very mesmerizing. i feel like i was in a heaven, looking at something that is really, really, totally rare. it shoots from one star to another star. the first time i saw it, i feel like my eyes tricking myself. but on the second incident, i feel like i was a very special human.
The first time is when i was with my family on vacation at Terengganu. on that time, i was laying on the sand on the beach, looking at the skies, counting the stars, texting my girl, then i saw it. I feel like "Wow, what a very romantic moment". i can never forget every thing about that moment. more over, i just had a quarrel between me and my little brother. when i saw the shooting star, i feel like all my problems just lost.
The second time, when i was dating with my girl. well, this time im not having a very good moment tough. there was a very big problem happens to us. but still, i can never forget it. when i was talking to 'this guy', i look up into the skies and there it was; the shooting stars. it really mesmerize me. then again, i feel like all my problems lost. unfortunately, she didn't see it. well, may be i really are a special human. =p
The first time is when i was with my family on vacation at Terengganu. on that time, i was laying on the sand on the beach, looking at the skies, counting the stars, texting my girl, then i saw it. I feel like "Wow, what a very romantic moment". i can never forget every thing about that moment. more over, i just had a quarrel between me and my little brother. when i saw the shooting star, i feel like all my problems just lost.
The second time, when i was dating with my girl. well, this time im not having a very good moment tough. there was a very big problem happens to us. but still, i can never forget it. when i was talking to 'this guy', i look up into the skies and there it was; the shooting stars. it really mesmerize me. then again, i feel like all my problems lost. unfortunately, she didn't see it. well, may be i really are a special human. =p
sedang melayan lagu Airplane - B.O.B. ft Haley, tiba2 terkenang si dia. kebetulan pula, saya sedang msg adik lelaki dia utk bertanya khabar dia. hmm.. tanpa saya sedari air mata mengalir. bukan kerana kisah silam, tetapi kerana mendapat berita dia akan ke Syria. ada program untuk kos dia. bagaimanakah rasanya berjauhan dengan dia? bagaimana jika dia bertemu dgn lelaki2 Syria yg hensem2? pastinya diri ini diketepikn. hmm. sedih memang sedih, tp kne tabahkn hati. kalo dpt apa2 berita yg tak sedap didengar, kne terima dengan hati terbuka walaupun terpaksa. mungkin sbg petanda yg diri ini belum bersedia untuk mencintai seseorg.
Friday, February 25, 2011
saya baru hidup!
pernah tak rasa putus cinta sampai frust menonggeng? kita dah cuba sedaya upaya untuk memperbaiki hubungan yang retak tetapi dia tidak peduli tentang usaha kita. kadang2 kita tak sedar yang kita dah mencintai seseorang itu sampai la dia memutuskan hubungan. kadang2 kita tak sedar yang sebenarnya dia tak mencintai kita macam apa yang kita harapkan. sebenarnya ada satu je yang kita tak sedar; dia bukanlah untuk kita. terpulang kepada kita untuk menerima siapa dia sebenarnya.
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